You have habits. So do I. I have many actually, and they’re quite..eccentric.
One of these habits happens to be, the constant desire to be a source. What is that supposed to mean?
Well, everything I do, has to be my own, my work, mine.
When I began blogging, the design had to be my idea, the photos had to be my photography, the posts had to be mine own muses.
I unconsciously refuse to use other’s work as my own. Which I suppose can be good, but there’s nothing wrong at all with using a quote to aid your paragraph, or a credited photo on a post. But no. I’m stubborn.
There are those of us who promote other’s works, and without these people, works would simply fade away. And there are those of us who produce something. I’ve always craved to be the one producing.
Sometimes, however, I am content to simply gather the sources in one spot, to form a collection of other’s works. For example my Modern Modest Fashion Facebook page. I can’t take photos required for the page, but I can do the work of surfing the web in order to come up with the best collections I can. Not someone else’s collection. Mine own. Not someone else’s ideas and suggestions, mine own.
Sometimes this goes to extremes. For example, Pinterest. Pinterest never really appealed to me because it was someone else’s photos, being repined from someone else’s boards! I humphed. Then I found out you could surf the web and add your own pins! Which is what I do. I can’t bear to repin something. Unless I absolutely love it. I want to do it. On my own. I want to be the one whose pins others repin. I want the boards to be my own finds. Otherwise, I feel I’m cheating.
Extreme much? Nonsensical much? I know.
This turns up in most areas of my life, and it reached into the gym. I don’t use protein shakes no matter how frequently and long I hit the gym, nor how many times my uncle (his job involves fitness, and protein shakes and what not) insists it’s not cheating, or that I need it. Nope. I’m stubborn. I will gain results out of my own hard work, not some silly drink thingy. (Deep down I do realize this is quite silly, and if you use protein shakes, bear with me and my silliness and think no more of it. Please.)
When I went to the gym the first few times, I was completely lost. What am I doing here again? I hated the treadmill. It made me feel like a hamster, running running, and not getting anywhere. But instead of asking for help, or a personal trainer, or anything really, I tried to figure everything out on my own. And for a while it was satisfactory, until I decided I wanted results, and I wanted them now! In 2012!
So last year, (sounds cooler than saying last week), I gave in. I admitted I’m clueless and have no idea how to build a fitness schedule/plan. So I found one. On Pinterest, (I know. Of all places for me to trust). But I’m giving it a go.
I began on Monday, and thought to myself, “This will be so easy, I mean, seriously, the workouts are so short and simple!” I could totally do this. I didn’t even spend more than five minutes warming up.
Apparently my body isn’t quite used to actual, focused workouts. It let me know that really really quick. Monday night I was walking around, as Victor said, “Like a crab.” I was sore. Really really sore. Tuesday I barely moved, grimaced with every squirm, and oh if you touched me! But I did Tuesday’s workout anyway. No gain without pain, right? Today I’m still quite sore. But it’ll get better, it’ll get easier. Especially because I’ll warm up from now on!
One of the items on my bucket list was “Walk a day like Charlie Chaplin.” Too bad it wasn’t “Walk a day like someone who’d been run over by a delivery truck, battered by a bull (ohhh alliteration! High five me!), and then trampled thoroughly by a train, (when I start I can’t stop), or I would be able to cross that off the list already.
If you’d like to see the workouts, just go to my Pinterest, click on the Motivation | Inspiration board, and look for the workouts with days of the week on them. They look easy don’t they?