{"id":98,"date":"2019-07-31T07:42:00","date_gmt":"2019-07-31T15:42:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/larissagessner.wordpress.com\/?p=98"},"modified":"2019-12-03T10:14:39","modified_gmt":"2019-12-03T18:14:39","slug":"because-i-do-not-exist","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thegirlwrites.com\/pt\/because-i-do-not-exist\/","title":{"rendered":"Because I Do Not Exist."},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align:center;\"><em>I found this in my draft box. It is from 2014, and having been written so long ago, I had forgotten it completely. Reading it amused me. I hope you like somethig from the brain of 2014 Larissa.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>They sent me because I do not exist.<\/p>\n<p>I do not lurk in the shadows. I am not the wall flower. I am not quiet, or moody. If I were, I would exist to you. I would be eerie and mysterious. I would intrigue. My power lies not in a proclaimed invisibility. Nor in popularity. I am the middle ground\u2013the best place to not exist.<\/p>\n<p>Instead, I am hidden in the broad smile, behind the bright eyes and underneath the cheery small talk. I am the average. Therefore, you do not remember my existence. It is nothing remarkable. I am nothing remarkable.<\/p>\n<p>Yet.<\/p>\n<p>Tomorrow, though, will change everything. They have chosen me, and they have chosen me precisely because I do not exist.<\/p>\n<p>Tomorrow I will infiltrate your mind. I will unearth all your secrets. I will disturb your soul. I will paralyze your body.<\/p>\n<p>I will reveal myself. I will jump from behind eyes. I will expose myself in the small talk. I will not be the average. You will remember my existence. I am remarkable.<\/p>\n<p>Yet what am I? Oh, you cannot name me. I do not yet exist.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I found this in my draft box. It is from 2014, and having been written so long ago, I had forgotten it completely. Reading it amused me. I hope you like somethig from the brain of 2014 Larissa. They sent me because I do not exist. I do not lurk in the shadows. 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